Monday, January 23, 2012

Kiss Of Death .. or so we thought -

We got LeAnna an aquarium for Christmas, with the promise of her very own SHARKS!   They are "hopefully" coming to live with us tomorrow!   We had the tank set up by a "fish guy" who gave us a little "shark 101" ... and after purchasing (upon his advice) 4 test fish ... we have two still with us!   The first one to go was Angel (appropriately named) because she earned her wings on day 2!


   The other three were doing great ... until ... last week, one went missing (aka Brucey) ... Brucey was rather small compared to his "friend" Wally, who is a larger kissing fish (kiss of death!  So I blamed him for) ... for a week now, Brucey has been no where to be found ... so one would be led to believe that "someone ate their friend for food"!  We looked everyday, several times a day for Brucey - but to no avail ... I was really puzzled and we all came to the conclusion that Wally (biggest fish in the tank) ate Brucey!   We had actually settled to this over the weekend ... I went to the tank several times, looked very closely at Wally, and to me he just appeared larger all of a sudden!   All the more reason to believe the horrible thing he had done! ... well, LeAnna had a friend over to play after church yesterday, and while playing, Ms. Vovie discovered a rock (so she thought) laying in between the tank and the couch ... we looked closer ... IT WAS BRUCEY!!!   ON THE FLOOR ... OUTSIDE OF THE TANK!!!   WHAT?!?!?!? 

Ok, how does this happen?!   I'm so confused ... huge tank, lid always closed except for feeding time ... HOW?!?!   I've since spoke with several fish owners who have all said, "he jumped out of the tank" ... WHAT?!   Wouldn't I have seen that?   A fish jumping OUT of the tank (again, which is only opened while feeding for just a few short seconds) ... oh well ... there he lay in all his glory!   Poor Brucey ... plunged to his death!   At least he didn't get eaten ... at least one mystery solved ... now to only wonder "when" he jumped!

Oh what fun!   Now, on to the sharks ... anticipating their arrival ... I'll post pics once they are here.

Mysterious Day,
Tammy

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Principal's List ...


LeAnna was honored yesterday for making Principal's list for this last semester.  She struggled a bit in Math but brought her grades up from a B to an A ... which gave her straight A's ... She worked so hard at it ... VERY proud of her!!!    And was glad I got to attend the presentation.  Way to go Lucy Lu!!!!




I feel it is VERY important to praise our kids when they do good!   And when they don't do so good, praise them for their effort and encourage to do better.   A child's self esteem can be damaged severely at this age and that damage will follow them through out their life time ... I've seen many adults that do not believe in themselves, have very low self esteem, and feel they can't reach beyond ... a LARGE percentage of this is from childhood.  I encourage you to be an encourager today!!   Not just to children, but to adults ... damage is done for them, but YOU could make a difference in their outlook today!

"Everybody is a genius.  But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."      ~ Albert Einstein
Happy Day,
Tammy

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Home Made Insanity Bars...AKA - Sin!

Found this ... HAD to try ... not sure what it's called ... but "Home Made Insanity or SIN" comes to mind!   And I'm probably insane for making it!  

However ... it's a MUST try!   Oh MY GoodNESS!!!!

I found several variations on line ... but I decided to do my own thing:

First I made a "from scratch" chocolate chip cookie dough.  Pressed it into a greased Pyrex (9x13).

(I did this before I thought about taking pics to share this recipe.)

Then ... I used an entire package of DOUBLE STUFFED Oreos!   Yep! ... layered them on top of the cookie dough.


Then I used Duncan Hines Decadent Triple Chocolate Brownie Mix - mix according to box and pour on top of Oreos - spread evenly and let it ooze down in between the Oreos!   AAAHHHHH!!!!!!




Then I baked (in a preheated) 350 degree oven for 40 minutes.   It's going to look a little undone in the middle and maybe a little too done on the edges - but that's okay.  I kept mine in the dish overnight and cut into bars this morning!  


AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!   I'm telling you it's INSANE!

Insanity Bars ... You should try!

Oh Yeah, It's Going To Be A HAPPY DAY!
Tammy

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Some Days Are Like, Just So Random (said in my 80's valley girl voice) ...

Okay ...  so ...  my computer crashed ... and well ... thank God my hard drive was recoverable ... computer was questionable, but I think it's going to pull through too!  It happened last Thursday morning, a day when I thought "what else" ... let's just say it was the icing on my cake!  Which actually a piece of cake might have helped!  ... but oh well ... hopefully my computer will be up and running this evening.

Went to the mountains this weekend ...  it was a much needed time to relax and recoup from the busy holidays.  Took an extra day off yesterday ... SO glad I did ... I was able to take down the Christmas decor, put it away, clean, and get the house back to somewhat semi-normal.  LOVE Christmas decor, but when it's time to take it down, I think it's the loneliest my house looks all year!  It makes me want to go buy a table arrangement or something!  Anything, to make it not look so bla.  I'm a little embarrassed that the tree didn't come down until January 16th!   YIKES!   That's CRAZY ... but my life is crazy - so I guess it goes hand in hand - lol!

Once my computer is up and running, I'll post some pics from the holidays ... had my annual cookie exchange in December and I'm excited to post pics about it.   We always have so much fun, and this year was no exception!   So, pics soon!

Crazy weather in January ... Tornadic activity in mid-January?!   Really?   60 degrees this morning?  Really?! 

Random thoughts for this post I know .... but I'm random at times ...

happy Random day,
Tammy

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Power Of The Spoken Word ...Or Not

The power of the spoken word ... ever think about it?  We speak so many of them ... all day long ... words, words, words ... some, mean SO much, some are probably better off unspoken.

Ever get those urges to speak to someone, something of meaning ... it's almost like you will burst if you don't get to that person and say it.  If it's a positive thing, more than likely it's meant for you to say it.   Don't hold it in .. say it ...

That person could be waiting, praying ... for someone to speak special words of encouragement ...

words of hope ...

words of help ...

and ... YOU could be that someone ... today.

So, that unction you feel to speak words today ... to someone ...

do it ...

Just do it.

Because more than likely, that person is going to say back to you ... "I was waiting for that".

The POWER of the Spoken Word ...

I learned the hard way, a long time ago NOT to hold it, but to speak it when I feel it ...

We are His hands, His feet, His hugs, His tangible, His Spoken Words.

Just do it!

Happy  Day, Tammy

Monday, January 9, 2012

Principal's List ...

Such a proud Mom!!!  LeAnna got her report card today and we were all a little anxious about her math grade ... she had some trouble this last semester ... but she worked really hard at it ... and ... all A's!!!!   Yea!  So proud of her!   She was excited to say the least!   I was able to take off a little early and pick her up from school.   We went to Tequila's for an after school snack (which ended up being dinner) and then to Justice for some new lip gloss!  She was a happy camper!  She proved to herself that her efforts paid off!   Way to go Lucy Lou!

I think Nate and I feel like we got A's too!  lol ... gotta love homework!  Whew!

happy day ... Tammy

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Strolling The Lane of Sweet Memories ...

Today was Mom's 70th birthday and she decided she wanted to spend it in Celina, Tennessee where she was born and raised ...   So, that's what we did!


There were 12 family members that went, and from the beginning, breakfast at Cracker Barrel in Nashville ... until the very end, dinner at Long Horn Steak House in Cookeville, the conversation pretty much consisted of nothing but memories.   I discovered new things today,  and there were other family members that learned things they never knew as well.  On the way there, Judy (mom's sister), gave her a box of memories, treasures if you will, that she slowly went through during our ride to Celina.  There were pictures, small hand made treasures from Mama Neely (mom's mom), and poems written by Mama Neely.  One poem was written for mom on her birthday years ago, but for her to read it today ... wow!   Special, sweet words from Mama Neely, blessing my mom on her special day ... no dry eyes in the van!  The first place we went was where mom went to school.   The old elementary school had been torn down ... all that remained was the high school that she attended.  Memories flowed out of Nana as she spoke of the tree in the yard, the playground around to the side, gazing out the window at the surroundings that we actually saw with her as we turned around and she pointed things out ... coming out of these front doors ...
This was the very spot where Nana was born ... on the coldest day of the year, 15 BELOW zero!  The house is gone now, but this is where it stood. And she is standing in the vicinity of where the bedroom was where she was born.


This is looking out over what "was" the backyard ...  The state came through and purchased 3 acres of land from the family to put in a highway ... the memories were vibrant for Nana, but it made it more difficult for LeAnna and I to imagine.  They cut into the property right beside where the house stood, and went down 80 feet to create this huge hole right in the middle of the property to make room for the new highway.

It was difficult for Nana to imagine that the very place where she ran through the backyard over to these trees was now a huge hole!  However, where the tree line now begins and beyond is the remaining 62 acres left.  Nana had a VERY large backyard!  =0)


The family stood in a circle about where the house stood, held hands, and prayed a special birthday prayer of thanksgiving for Nana ... a very special moment.

LeAnna wanted so bad to play where Nana once played ... when we were leaving the property she told us that she had gone to the van and found a piece of paper, wrote a note on it about being at Nana's house and then went and buried it in the dirt.   She made her own special memory.


We went down the "new hill" that was created and crossed over to the once attached "back yard" ... and walked out on some of the 62 acres.


We all listened as Nana told story after story of playing and working on the property.


Our next stop was down the street to Mamie's house (Nana's grandmother).  This was a tree that stood beside the front of Mamie's house before it burned to the ground a few years ago.  LeAnna said she wanted to "touch the tree that Nana touched so many years ago" ... she really got into this "all about Nana" day.


LeAnna was so into it that at one point she said she was sad, because she wanted to see everything just like Nana did when she was little.  Here's LeAnna walking the back yard of Mamie's house.  Nana told us of how she remembers stealing eggs from the chickens, taking them to the store and selling them for candy, then she would go back behind these trees and hide and eat her candy!  She also remembers feeling really guilty about it, confessing it, and getting in trouble for it!



We ended the day with dinner at Long Horn Steak House in Cookeville before heading back home.  It was definitely a day to remember ... and I know beyond the shadow of a doubt a day we will never forget!

Happy 70th Birthday Nana!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Happy Birthday Nana!


Another milestone ... 70!   My sweet mom will be 70 tomorrow and looks GREAT!!!   She has asked LeAnna and I to spend the day with her on her birthday ... we are going to where she was born, Celina, Tennessee for the day ... I'll post pics later ... we had a party at Tee's Fireside Cafe this evening with family and it was such a nice time together.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

The Envy Of Peggy Perfect

This has been on my mind all day ... have you ever been at a place in your life where you questioned your very existence, or questioned why you were at the place you were at, going through what you were going through, having to deal with issues bombarding your mind to the point you couldn't think of anything else except that "issue"!   I have been there a few times in my life, okay MANY times in my life ... even in the recent past.  But I learned a HUGE lesson this last year and my way of thinking started changing.  There are days when you wonder why "Peggy Perfect" is just that - PERFECT!  The perfect weight, the perfect clothes, the perfect conversation, the perfect hair, the perfect pair of shoes (that you almost bought, but couldn't spare the money at the time) UGH!  When you see "Peggy", "Peggy" is actually starting to get on your nerves because she's SO stinkin' perfect!   And then you stop.  ... and realize that Envy has crept in and it's full blown!  Hmmm ... it can happen so easy ... allowing your mind to wonder why isn't "Piggy, I mean Peggy Perfect" having weight issues, why isn't Peggy looking frumpy in her clothes, why isn't Peggy's hair needing a new look, why isn't Peggy ... why, why, why ...  but I learned that I am where I am at this point in my life for a reason ... We all are at the place we are in life for a reason ... Peggy Perfect is probably NOT perfect, just appears that way ... for all I know Peggy could have a horrible husband who abuses her and then instead of saying "sorry" gives her money to buy those perfect clothes and perfect shoes!  Peggy is probably at the pefect weight because food makes her sick because she's so unhappy.  Peggy is probably just as messed up on the inside as the way I'm feeling but just a different reason got her to that same point as me.  It's easy to look at the other person and wish to be them or ask "why me" ... but once you realize that it's all part of a plan ... a plan to make you better, a plan to help you grow, a plan to get you from point A to point B ... your outlook will start to change.   Mine did.  I've been at the point of not even wanting to leave my home, not seeing anyone, only getting out if necessary ... I've been there ... it's actually a very lonely place to be.  Now, I look back and see that where I was then, got me to where I am today ... it taught me valuable lessons that I otherwise would not have slowed down long enough to learn.  I'm thankful for those times (I wasn't very thankful at the time) but I see a bigger picture now.  So if you're at that point in your life, where you're questioning every little thing going wrong, and wondering "why me" ... just know that it's all part of a plan ... It's very hard to do, but the thing TO do, is stop complaining, stop comparing, and just accept the fact that it's all going to be okay because it's a part of YOUR plan that God has for YOU.  Who knows who'll be placed in your life in the future that you will be able to help.

I see so many opportunities now to help others ... truly help others ... to empathize with others that are going through things I've been through during my lifetime ... and if I had not been through some of those dark times, I would never, ever be able to REALLY sympathize with that hurting person who feels all alone ... but because I've been there, I can cry REAL tears and truly understand. 

Yes ... it's difficult to face the valleys, the dark, lonely times ... but know that you are being trained to be His hands, and His feet, and His ears, and His hugs ... a REAL, Tangible God to someone who might not even believe.

Yep, long heavy heart post ... and not even sure why I'm typing all this ... hopefully it helps someone.

Happy Day ... Tammy

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Encouragement ...

One of the personal things I pray for is to be an encouragement to others.  Sometimes it comes easy, and then sometimes I really have to make an effort to encourage.   Some days it just seems to flow and be so easy to be nice to people ... and some days, not so much, lol!

Today at work, it was a HUGE Monday all on a Tuesday!  Not just first day back after a holiday, but first day of the new year.   WOW ... (and backwards) WOW!!!   I was challenged a few times today to say the least ... at times today I felt like everything I touched either didn't work, broke, dropped, smelled, could have been done different, spilled, got all over me, tangled up, leaked, backed up, was too high, or way too low, not to mention getting yelled out because THEIR insurance ran out Dec 31st, which funny though, seemed to be all MY fault! ... YIKES!   Ever have one of those days?!   I found myself saying out loud today, at least twice, that I should go home and start over.

Then there was the smelly lady ... bless her heart ... reeked of cat urine ... I'm SO glad I forced myself at that moment to be overly nice to her ... it was difficult at first (not because of the smell) but because the NEW paperwork that EVERY patient has to fill out due to it being a new year was NOT getting filled out because she was too busy watching "The View" on television in the lobby, which was VERY full today.  So it put me behind a bit waiting on her to finish ... she eventually finished, I processed it, and then she was called back to a room.  I honestly had forgotten about smelly cat lady until she got ready to leave (normally our patients leave out a different door and I normally only see them on arrival) ... she called out to me and said, "I'm leaving, thank you for being so nice to me" ... then she took a few steps and turned around and said, "I have something for you" ... (oh boy - she started digging in her purse, the smell wafting through the air heavily flowed my way) ..."I want to give you a special book mark, You have made my day today by being so nice and I want you to have one of my special bookmarks ... I pass these out as an encouragement to others" ... definitely softening even more, I about teared up at the thought that this unassuming woman was making an effort to be an encouragement to me ... along with the bookmark was a small tract about God ...  OK, this is now a test of the emergency Godcast system ... got my attention for sure!

I'm glad I chose to be nice to this lady in a very frustrating situation ... I could have let this morning's little sparks light my fuse and I would not have been blessed by her gesture.   I got to thinking ... this little lady, who came alone (most of our patients have drivers because they are in the middle of their rehab) probably does not have a lot of family and depends on her house full of cats as companionship and support and just wants to be "a giver" and an encouragement to someone.

... In the middle of my "little mess", I forget how BIG I'm BLESSED!

happy day ... Tammy

Monday, January 2, 2012

Day 2 ...

Day number two ... have you kept your commitments so far?   Thankfully, I have ... I have several "goals" on my personal list and family list this year ... so far so good!   LOL!

We shopped today for plants, rocks, and decor for our new fish aquarium that LeAnna got for Christmas ... She's getting two sharks on Wednesday and we're all pretty excited about these little creatures coming to our home!   They are not like having ordinary fish, so we're having to get a little Shark 101 tomorrow from the Go Fish people.  Hopefully we will be prepared when they arrive on Wednesday!  

It's back to work for me tomorrow!   Can't say I'm that eager to get back, but duty calls!  LeAnna on the other hand is out until Friday ... she has enjoyed her 2 1/2 week break!  However, now she has 3 days left to cram in her homework!  Oh my ...

Happy Day ... Tammy

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New .... Better!

It's a fresh new day ... I guess it's a mental thing for me - but I LOVE January 1st ... even though 24 hours prior things were pretty much the same, I have a renewed feeling and outlook on life!   It's almost like getting to start over!  And with that, is this new blog ... I blogged for several years and stopped about a year ago ... I miss it SO much and after going back and looking at my blog entries from 2006 forward, I REALLY missed it ... just knowing I captured all that info about our life, and LeAnna ... WOW!   SO, I'm starting over - and how appropriate on this first day of a brand new year!

Our household is setting personal and family goals this year.  My only hope is that we maintain and stay on track ... hopefully blogging will help keep me accountable.

I so miss blogging and look forward to it in 2012!

Thought for this first day - what can I do to:

1.  better myself
2.  better my family
3.  better my friends
4.  better someone I don't even know

I want to do BETTER in 2012!

Life comes at you SO fast, and looking back I can see mistakes where I said "I'll do it later, I'll do it next year, etc." and then "later" and "Next year" passes and it never happened.  My goal is to do "better" and not put it off, but make a conscious effort to do it NOW, today!  I'm sure not getting any younger and I already have regrets of "I wish I had of's" and I'm tired of that ... SO, this year ... I'm going to do better!  I guess that's looking like my "word for the year" ... so here's to you and yours and hopes that you're encouraged to do BETTER this year too!

Tammy